6th June 2026
“This is the worst thing that has ever happened to us though, Aapo!” Leena cried. Six days on from the tragedy of our baby I had suggested that I head back to lead the Finland team in the World Cup. “I couldn’t care less if this is ‘the biggest moment of your career’, our baby has just died!”
I knew that what I was going to say was going to be misinterpreted as me being self-interested, but I didn’t care. “Leena, our baby hasn’t just died. He died nearly a week ago now. I mean, how long is this mourning process going to go on for exactly? Another week, a month? Six months? A year?” I said, leaning down in an almost interrogative manner.
She sat silently with the only noise from her being her sobbing. “I just think that this is so much more sensitive than you actually are getting across!” She finally said, raising her voice above her blubbering. “You make it sound like this has barely even affected yo-”
“How dare you even suggest that!” I said angrily, with my teeth gritted as I swiftly turned around to face her. “This is the worst thing that has ever happened to me and will ever happen to me! Yet here you are accusing me of not caring! Just for wanting a distraction from the constant depression that I’m living under within this house? That is a ridiculous thing to say and I’m not even sure if you’re aware of how stupid that is.”
Leena stopped sobbing as I turned away to face the wall again. As soon as she stopped I turned back round to face her as I knew that she would have something to say. “I can’t believe that you are so narcissistic to put the fame of fucking World Cup that you know that you’re not even going to win before the death of your own baby boy. It’s times like these where I absolutely cannot stand you, Aapo.” Leena said, curving her lips into a circle as she said it as if it was a funnel with insults coming out of the end.
I took a step back to comprehend what she had just said to me. Leena had never spoken to me like this ever before and it was a completely new area for me to handle. “Leena, this isn’t about gaining fame or achievement at all, I don’t care what you say. This is about me taking myself away from the travesty of this week and moving myself into an environment where I am not constantly thinking about this because digging a hole this deep in your mind is not going to get us anywhere,” I paused, watching Leena glare at me and hanging for my next words. I knew what I was going to say. “I’m going to the tournament, Leena.”
Leena’s mouth hung open, letting off a sarcastic laugh even though a tear dripped down her cheek at the same time. “Well, I think me and you are just about done, then. Fuck off to America or Canada or Mexico - wherever the hell it is you’re going. Just don’t expect me to be waiting her for you when you come back,”
At that point I decided to exit the room. I could sense Leena was getting hysterical and overworked by the whole scenario. I went into the kitchen to pick up my suitcase and rucksack before heading to the front door.
“Yeah that’s it, Aapo! Walk out to all the people who are leeching off you back home! You absolute coward!” I heard her screaming from the living room. I blanked it out of my mind as I shut the door slowly.
Making my way down the drive I turned back to look through the window to see Leena’s face pushed up against the glass with her finger pointing violently at me. We had triple glazed windows so her protests were muffled into vibrations but the look on her face remained in my head all through the journey to the airport.
Either way, I had one job to do now and that was in the World Cup.
Scott: They have performed well beyond expectations at every stage. The regens who are involved in the squad have also dramatically influenced its direction with some great prospects coming through the ranks at Oulu in particular.
Justice: Not the best-looking bunch are they?
SonOfAnarchy: Thanks mate! Obviously very sorry to hear that you found yourself in a similar place but its appreciated that I was able to reflect that experience in a realistic sense.
TheLFCFan: A great season indeed. A good send-off is required before he leaves Finland for good in my opinion!