Once, several silent nights ago, I had the world at my feet. In those glorious years, I was the epicenter of World Football. My every kick, word and breath was scrutinized, yet worshipped. Children across the planet idolized me, for I was their one true God, a harbinger of dreams and fantasies. Fans adored me, and wore my name on their lips. And as I stood there, on the biggest stage of this beautiful sport, within touching distance of the greatest of prizes that football can offer, as I soaked in the adulation of millions, a singular thought coursed through my mind: that it was all too good to be true.
And so it was, for one error of judgment, one lapse in concentration later, the world that I had so carefully pieced together, came crashing down, splintering into a million little bits. The man, who had been revered by so many, was now reviled, mocked and forever castigated. I had cost the nation that I so loved, the glory that it so yearned, depriving it of unbridled joy. In one miscalculated step, I had turned from hero to villain, a silhouette of a man whom people would never forgive. Everywhere I turned, only faces of grief and anger met me. I was a figure of contempt. I was a disgrace. Within seconds, football had shown me the two sides of the coin of life. It had turned its back on me. It was time for me to leave, never look back, and disappear into the shadows…
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25th June 2011
5 years have passed since those traumatic weeks. For 5 years, I have wallowed in my own shame and hurt. Not a moment has passed without retrospection, on how different things could have been had I not been so infinitely foolish. I am a nervous wreck, refusing to step outside the confines of my walls, with nothing and no-one for company but my own tears and rage. For several days now, offers have begun to flood my mailbox, with clubs wanting me as a part of their projects, but none of them interest me. I have gone too far down the walk of shame. I cannot relive those moments again…
27th June 2011
As I continue to struggle to pick up myself from my torturous memories, interesting offers continue to come in, with clubs offering me lucrative roles in management. The stories of many of these clubs mirror my life, each experiencing an era of domination before a hard fall from grace. While I have no intention of announcing my return to the footballing universe at the present, I realize that these offers are clearly opportunities for my redemption. Leading any of these clubs to glory would go some way in erasing my hellish past from my mind and raising the opinion of me in the public’s eye. But if I fail, I will fall even further, and from there, I am not sure if I can ever come back…
30th June 2011
I have made my decision. It has been a difficult one to make, and even now, as I stand on the cusp of my return, I do not know if it is the right choice. Throughout the days of my solitary, self-imposed, exile, I have ached to retrieve that winning feeling from the chasms of my heart, and though I know that I run the heavy risk of hurting myself and the hopes of millions, it is a gamble that I feel I must take. The time has come for me to exorcise those ghosts of injustice and blighted hope. For in my heart of hearts, I know, that I too, am a Special One...
And so it was, for one error of judgment, one lapse in concentration later, the world that I had so carefully pieced together, came crashing down, splintering into a million little bits. The man, who had been revered by so many, was now reviled, mocked and forever castigated. I had cost the nation that I so loved, the glory that it so yearned, depriving it of unbridled joy. In one miscalculated step, I had turned from hero to villain, a silhouette of a man whom people would never forgive. Everywhere I turned, only faces of grief and anger met me. I was a figure of contempt. I was a disgrace. Within seconds, football had shown me the two sides of the coin of life. It had turned its back on me. It was time for me to leave, never look back, and disappear into the shadows…
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25th June 2011
5 years have passed since those traumatic weeks. For 5 years, I have wallowed in my own shame and hurt. Not a moment has passed without retrospection, on how different things could have been had I not been so infinitely foolish. I am a nervous wreck, refusing to step outside the confines of my walls, with nothing and no-one for company but my own tears and rage. For several days now, offers have begun to flood my mailbox, with clubs wanting me as a part of their projects, but none of them interest me. I have gone too far down the walk of shame. I cannot relive those moments again…
27th June 2011
As I continue to struggle to pick up myself from my torturous memories, interesting offers continue to come in, with clubs offering me lucrative roles in management. The stories of many of these clubs mirror my life, each experiencing an era of domination before a hard fall from grace. While I have no intention of announcing my return to the footballing universe at the present, I realize that these offers are clearly opportunities for my redemption. Leading any of these clubs to glory would go some way in erasing my hellish past from my mind and raising the opinion of me in the public’s eye. But if I fail, I will fall even further, and from there, I am not sure if I can ever come back…
30th June 2011
I have made my decision. It has been a difficult one to make, and even now, as I stand on the cusp of my return, I do not know if it is the right choice. Throughout the days of my solitary, self-imposed, exile, I have ached to retrieve that winning feeling from the chasms of my heart, and though I know that I run the heavy risk of hurting myself and the hopes of millions, it is a gamble that I feel I must take. The time has come for me to exorcise those ghosts of injustice and blighted hope. For in my heart of hearts, I know, that I too, am a Special One...